IVE MADE ALOT OF MISTAKES TODAY. first, i got up and drank like 2 or 3 six packs, very good, lol!!!!! i was wicked drunk. then i brought some to shcool too. when i got there we had a pizza and candy party, it hurt my tommy bad!!!! i wanted to puke. then i was like WOOOO!!!! you know. then by the end of class i was drifting in and out of conscienceness and passed out for like 10 minutes at lunch, i never did puke. when i was passed out, i got grabbed by cory, alex told me so.NOT FUN!!!! felt like shit when i got the good old hang over, NOT!!! then c block i wrote a letter to barry, i was still buzzed and didnt remember what it said till it was too late. i now remember what it said, it was the lyrics to hold on by good charlette, a love song of course!!!! well, he has it a knows how i feel about him. its not that i dont want him to know, its that i dont want him to like me, i want to keep it a fantasy forever and always. i know he would hurt me or i would hurt him so i dont want that so, ill never date him, EVER!!!! i know its confusing.it was a mistake to love him. ive been thinking of earnie lately, it makes me sad. it reminds me of these words of hate to my rapeist: "when it happens to other people you say how sad you say poor thing but when its you its something else, its everything. never beleive the nightmares never know the pain you caused you took my body, torn it in half you took my childhood, my heart, and my laugh you took everything i kept for myself im not your poor thing!!!!" ~PMS~ I HATE YOU EARNIE!!!! YOU HURT ME IN WAYS YOULL NEVER KNOW!!!!!MY DEATH IS YOUR FAULT!!!