OK, i made a mistake. i made out with sean and i told logan, he forgave me but i didnt forgive myself, so i broke up with him, stupid me!!!!! now im hurt and all alone. i cut again. i want to die to tell the truth. sean and logan like arnt even friends anymore cuz of me, i feel so bad. i feel worse than dirt. i always do this, i always fuck things up. not anymore. im done dating forever!!!!! i want to kill myself but i cant. if you want to know more go to my myspace. my display name is gothic doll. check out my blog and plz, if you can, comment on my pics!!!!! on a lighter note, my sister bought me a candle and a bananna to cheer me up. it was a glass bananna, to keep me company, lol!!!!!! it was a gag gift, it cheered me up big time. i cut and bottled my blood and made it into a necklace like ive wanted to for a while. im spending tomarrow night at my grandparents house, i guess its cool i need a break from reality for a while. my birthday is soon. august 28th. im not looking foward to it though. i hate birthdays. i get to get my permit though, not that i want to drive. im kinda afraid to. well gots to go i guess, peace.