TODAY WAS SHITTY, im gonna dump logan, i like him more as a friend than a boyfriend. he says hes fallin in love with me, im not looking for love, and i dont love him. i love vicki, i love cameron. i just cant be with logan, i doesnt feel right. its ok though, i dont mind. i know i said id make it work and it be a REAL relationship, it just wasnt. but mabye next time, and run away scared like i did with cameron. i think ill call him, cam, see how hes doing. what do you think??? anyway, therapy sucked today. we talked about food. therapy isnt helping me much but oh well. i havent cut and thats good. i bought felicias soul. im gonna make her eat. im gonna email her and tell her i have seized her soul from kyle. i have a headache, this extra soul is heavy, lol!!!! im gonna buy matt donazs soul for $10 next week. i still miss brandi. the new insult at my table and with my friends is brandi. like "eww your so brandi" it makes me sad but i could never tell my friends i am still loyal to her, im just waiting for her call. one day shell want or even need my help and i will, without hesitation help her, this i solemnly swear.