So i'm sitting here at Ship and Anchor (which is a pub) and realizing that life, once again, in a short time, (mainly the time frame of a weeked) has taken an intersting turn. Dusty is an old friend of mine, When I was dating Danny we lived together. We also lived together last year too but he took off. He contacted me a little while ago and we hung out. The thing about Dusty is he's a Nazi. Yea, judge me if you will however my friends have always come in all shape and sizes and just because of their life style or what gang they are in dosen't mean i'm going to drop them. My friends are there for a reason. All in all he is an amazing guy but his choices aren't always the best.

ANYWAYS, so the other night when we hung out he ended up kissing me near the end of the night. I was a little confused because last time I lived with him he said we'd only ever be friends. Aperantly he's liked me for a bit. Meh. He's a good friend and i've seen him with girls and he really is an amazing boyfriend to them but I just could never date a nazi. I mean now he's getting shot at and his buddy got stabbed the other day. fuck. Not my cup of tea and it honestly never has been. I'm glad he's ok and i'm glad he's back.

Rav (the arab metal head) I was dating for a little bit here is going to Edmonton to live. Damn... but whatever... life goes on. He really would have been too much of a handfull I think. He's awesome but I would be too much of his Barbie and I really wouldn't be able to do anythign else.

Kassee (who turned muslim) had a sex dream about me the other night, which I still have a crush on her so I was a little excited about this. But she was really messed up and thinking about it all day and basically I think she still has feelings for me. Meh. She made her choice and was a bitch to me. She told me she'd wait for me and not even a month later she was off doing something else.

*sigh* Everyone else in between, like always, I seem to be their horror doll and their fantacy girl. It's fine because I have excepted this a long time ago. Always a rag doll never a china doll.

Well i'm off to ponder and listen to music and get looked at by older highclass men who happen to be in this pub.

*~Ashley~*

LAter Days!