Yellowcard "Inside Out" Here. A little sympathy for you to waste on me I know you're faking it but that's okay And I don't want to drag it out Don't want to bring you down I never wanted it to end this way Even if I wanted to I don't think that I'd get to you There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again Here. A little jealousy I hope you think of me Hope you wonder where I sleep at night Cause I feel like I'm inside out You got me upside down Maybe I was holding on too tight Even if I wanted to I don't think that I'd get to you There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again So don't just say goodbye to me Just turn your back away and leave And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend The two of us we dream like one The two of us, the two of us The two of use take breath like one The two of us, the two of us I guess that this is over now I guess it's called the falling out WOW...today was an alright day and i was actually messaged 1st!! That made my moment until the conversation died almost immediately..i got the whole: "i'll be better tomorrow" shit...THEN he was complained to or whatever by his other friend and it all went downhill from there...he got so pissed off, he went to bed (this happened about 2 seconds ago)...this was the first night in my life (of us talking) that i didn't feel like i did something when he left...i actually knew it was because of someone else and he even told me he was sorry...that was pretty nice i thought...either way, it's summer so i'm planning on staying up later which will throw off my whole schedule...blah blah...i guess i have to watch what i say on this because i'm sure sooner or later people i know will find out about this and my cover will be blown..can't wait to see what happens with that...oh, that's another thing...he was bummed (YET AGAIN) about his non-existant love-life (besides my dreams) and i told him about sitDiaries to shut him up...so he wound up looking at these diaries claiming "I like to read about other people's problems because it makes me feel better"...nice. hopefully he didn't come across mine in the random because if he took the time to read it, i'd never be able to talk to the kid again simply because he'd know my deepest, darkest secrets (yeah right)...plus my name on here is almost the same as my AIM name(AIM-saveyourself055--msg me!)...his name's not in here but situations are, and although he can be a little dense, he'd know...sometimes I wish that i could tell him my feelings or let him read my entries to realize how crazy i am about him...maybe it would put situations in perspective too...that would be really nice...alot of time the only way of expressing myself is through songs in my away messages, but i'm sure he doesn't know um...all...of them are about him...today's away is yellowcard *inside.out* and that really explain the way i feel about him right now...sometimes i just don't know what to think and writing in here really does help me vent...i have a feeling this summer is going to be very venty...who can i talk to if my friends can't relate? You guys. Complete and utter strangers...sometimes it helps more than anything else...besides some jerk-offs that would put in negative comments, i'm not openly being judged, and that gives me comfort...i guess i'll go because i have no one else to talk to...sleep is the next best thing..bb 2morrow... r0cking out of here ~jean m/