I have some stuff I feel bad about thinking. I just dont want to think that mean since people are hurting and I dont want to push at it. I care about him and all I am going to do is let things happen the way they are going to. I dont want him to be upset but its all in gods plan. He upsets meometimes the way he acts around me. I dont know what i want anymore. hes an awesome friend and i really dont want to ruin that between us. But, I have to let things happen. I have to go clean now because my rents are coming to visit me. lata! Caroline