I dont know what I want from anything. I want to just break myself and be free and not worry about this shit. I want to roam and not worry about having to be tied down with all this stress from school, and what I will be doing this summer. I am so lost I want to be the free spirit that I am really. I also want to settle in and find a person to be with so I really dont know what I want for my priorities. Everyone makes fun of me because I have so many crushes but it is really my way of avoiding settling down. I dont know who I want to be with. When I do fall in love it will be strong and passionate and it will be with the right person. I dont want the confusing that I have had in the past I just want to be happy with my life and who I am going to be with. I had talked to someone yesterday and it was interesting but it was uncomfortable but I dont know why, I never get uncomfortable with the guys I like its weird. hes neat. every guy I like I say its different. The reason is me because I make things so much more than it really is. At the moment I really only like two guys Skank, and Brad. Skank is cool, he is graduating this year and the thing about him is that he is really into religion like I am he works hard, he is really sweet, and I like his friends. Then with brad he is sweet and easy to talk to he takes care of me and he has cool friends because we share friends. I dont know any more I just want to SCREAM I hate guys. I hate liking guys! I hate the fact that I am scared of being hurt again and that nothing is going to work out anymore. Hm... HELP ME!!! AH!