So two things now im hoping ot make this long wow go me !!!! first~ i was checkin my e-mial and i got one from jess it was that dumb long servay thing and when i got to the friends part i saw how many times my name was on ther!! now it was ther under best friend!! she is my best friend and i love her soo much like a lil sis but then i was ther under friends wants to b close to agian!! i dunno i felt wierd like i almost take her for granite or somtin!! then i started thinkin i take a lot of peeps for granite and i love them all but theres only so much time!! dont get me wrong im happt i really am but i started thinkin how much lifed changed!! i seem to be getting yougner and older at the same time! a lot of things people or relizing now i did a long long time ago i mean 3th and 4th grade long ago! but at the same time im goin through the same things b/c im slowly letting my gaurd down. i relized that today ever since i became friends wit kelsey i have been led to belive that i can trust certain people and im not pushing people away so much!! and i was watching dawsons creek and relized that if i do keep pushing peeps away my life wont b full! 2nd i was readin nicoles diary and was thinking i have a lot of friends that only have 2 more years!! like i said right now thinkin is somtin i really wanna do and i am learin a lot about myself but it never seems to solve n ething as much as kelsey has influenced me to trust peeps i still have problems!! i hat it but what can i do??? u no when school is over all of these peeps u need now will b gone so what the point of getting so attached now?? thats the way i look at things i dont want to n e more!! I just keep living in the momment doin things wit whoever i want and living life and hope that it all works out but what if it doesnt?? im wanna lose people who live in the momment and a lot of times that keeps me from getting hurt but im 2nd guessing myself!! and i dont no how to stop i think im gunna go crazy!! WEll if u actually read all of that ur crazy and if u just read some then came down to leave a comment and read this part its the thought that counts!!! love ya all I hate you, I love you I just can't remember to forget you Who are you, who needs you? You make me feel alive, I die, so high I'm crawling on the ground I have found I can fly One of these days it all comes together One of those days that goes on forever Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever What's it all about? Chorus It's about life, it's about fun It's over before it has begun It's about you, it's about me It's about everything between and I say I'm saying goodbye to you, I say hi to you with no clue It's about time that I Make up my mind It's simple, confusing, the truth is I'm winning but I'm losing And pulling and pushing, won't do me any good It could, it should I'm honest to myself that the truth is I lied One of these days it all comes together One of those days that goes on forever Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever What's it all about? Chorus Time is creeping behind me, surrounding around me Fading the words so desperately Now give me a reason that I can believe in Time is something you can't rewind One of these days it all comes together One of those days that goes on forever Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever What's it all about? wow i love that song!!