well, hmm...lets see... my schedule pretty much sucks. which wouldn't be so bad if i knew how to effing fix it. but nooooooo, i have to be stupid and not let go of things and be indescisive and have feelings. stupid fucking feelings. sometimes i just wanna slice myself open and tear out my heart so i wouldnt have to worry about them anymore. or rather, tear out all the little PIECES of my heart. ARGH. sorry...morbid i know...but dude... im so not okay right now... edit ok, so to recap (not that anyone cares) today thoroughlysucked. tomorrow probly will too...and the day after... oh hell, why bother being optimistic, this entire school years going to suck. know whats funny? i have been extremely depressed alllllll day today. like, seriously, all day. im still like, holding back tears this very minute. but you wanna know the funny thing? im smiling. yeah, thats right, im in a great mood except for the whole severedepressionwantingtogojumpoffacliffanddie part. dear diary...i think im going insane. lol.