well i got heather's number tonight. i'm almost giddy, i havn't really gone out witha girl since krispy and i feel really bad about all that. anyways.... this girl is super cool and mega super fantastic hot and she likes me.... so far. i just gotta be nice and funny and charming and be myself and all the stuff that obviously convinced her to like me. i know alot of people think i am an asshole, but i'm not. i just can be one when i feel it necessary. and whether certain people think so or not, there is a time for being cold. sometimes we just pick the wrong times. anyhoo, she can't drive either, but her cousin andrew can and i know hima nd he has a girlfriend and well, a double date with her cousin and his girlfriend looks good to parents and it keeps things kosher. i don't want anything serious or overly sexual. i just want to make a new friend. one that i happen to kiss and cuddle with. but no gratuitous feeling up and writhing around. i've been doing better lately socially and as far as my faith goes. i just feel closer to God. i don't get warm and fuzzy about Jesus like alot of christians say they do, so for me to feel something about it is big. ...and i just want you to know, i found a reason for me to change who i used to be, a reason to start over new. and the reason is you. i found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know, a reason for all that i do and the reason is you. the reason is you. peace love and whatever makes you smile...