well, the last week or so has been very introspective. i have rediscovered life's hilarity. and as funny as i've always been i'm fucking killer now. everything about the way things aregoing, even when i feel angry, i feel so... zen. not literally or that i'm off on a bhuddist trip, just that i can cope alot better i feel like i've torn down walls in dealing with my family and that we all just need space, but when i'm being afronted i need to chill and just listen and nod my head and shutup and be cool. i've been dealing with it better. people are flaky like that. we need space and expect people to not get pissed when theirs is invaded. i'm not sure if i believe in having a "bubble" anymore. it seems we should all share space and not be confined to our own. if people were more comfortable with being "close", spiritually, sensually, as friends and confidants. i think alot of people would lead healthier happier lives. having a friend or a lover who is a good listener and who bounces stuff off of you and shares with you openly is really a relief. even when they are confessing to you you feel like a weight has been lifted off of the whole vibe. i'm super happy i've developed a level of consciousness where i can be totally open with people. i'm at a very high place in my life. and it's a great time. The sugar's only sweetness, Salt is ocean tears And you were my only weakness For years and years and years You little yellow sweetie You were hiding in a jar Now my mind is gone completely Take off the lid and there you are You're my candy Candy Well the devil, she made sweet candy, took six days and nights to dream On the seventh day she rested, woke up early and made ice cream Now the devil, she must be a dentist with deep jawbreaker eyes Red rope hair, gumdrop lips, cotton candy thighs choco lava stole my body and aftertaste stole my mind Left me dangling down defenseless then sweet candy she said goodbye Now my teeth are worn and useless My eyes too sunk to see My tongue swelled up to twice its size and all I want to do is eat MY CANDY! peace love and suckin' on my candy...