I can't think straight anymore. And everytime I talk to him I feel more and more like a cheating whore. And I'm not the one cheating on my boyfriend. He's cheating on his girlfriend. And I feel awful. But oh my god, just to be with him again.... I know I'm never going to be over this. He acts like he isn't either but who knows. Nobody ever knows. And I just think about when he's leaving. And I cry. I get so upset about this all the time. And then he talks to me He says how much he misses me. How much he'll miss me when he leaves. And I'm so happy that he thinks about me for even ten seconds. Its just that I don't know if ten seconds is all he thinks about me for. I am so stupid, so so stupid. And I hate how I still care so much. I still care SO much.