omg:(...my mom just went on a walk with me and she told me that Trevor*my bro* left this morning and she kicked him out cuz he was threatening to trash our house and kill her. she says shes not letting him back in . omg im so sad:( im like crying my eyes out..i knew this day would come but i didnt think it would come so soon:(...i need to talk to someone but theres no one to talk to because i threw away all my friends:( and i tried calling Tahirah but shes not answering her phones shes prolly out sumwhere..and my mom is making me go see a therapist because she says that i have an attitude problem and that i have anger problems..she always blames me for her problems. its not me that should be seeing someone, its her..i definately dont wanna leave for ottawa now:( i miss my brother already ..he was my role model and what i looked up to and i loved him so much..i cant believe hes actually gone ..im not gonna see him often at all:( i didnt think my family problems could get worse but they did:(...JP just asked me to go and blaze 2night and fuck him ..im so tempted to go but if i get caught sneaking out my mom will like die:|...i honestly dont kno how much more of this i can stand. i dont kno how much more i will be able to take til i break down again. ~*~Chella~*~