well i just did all my exercises and my relaxing tape and i got all ready for bed and im pooped. im so tired and every muscle in my body is hurting me but i love that feeling. im so determined to get skinny, not for anyone else but for myself. its not like im fat or n ething im just a little chubby and i could lose a few pounds if i want to wear a bikini properly and stuff. i think that i concentrate on my image a little too much sometimes tho, but sometimes i need to because to a lot of ppl it seems that i dont have a lot of self confidence but i just dont show it. i do have it.......i feel as tho im pushing cristina away even more then what we already were. maybe im just worrying too much but i think that she doesnt like me or want to be friends with me anymore. and cristina yu might b reading this but thats okay i want yu to kno thats how i feel and thats why i always ask yu if yur mad at me cuz thats the vibe that i get from you. i miss hanging out with tahirah too. we had a lot of fun together even if it got boring having to stay around here. i like talking to her a lot, she understands what im trying to say even if i make no sense at all lol....im so psyched. me steph kanne genia and kannes mom and either steph or genias mom are all going away for a week in june or july to ontario to stay at a resort. we're still trying to figure out all the details and how much it will cost and stuff and steph might not b allowed to go but then itll b cancelled so lets just all hope for the best cause it would be so much fun going there. theres like a beach and 3 outdoor pools 2 indoor pools 3 jacuzzis and lots of other fun stuff to do too :) ... oh my god i just remembered that im piercing my belly button in december :| i totally forgot. :| .. i think im gonna wait til like the middle of january when im a bit nicer looking in my stomach area. i really need to just keep doing these tapes and going to my exercise and dance classes and watching what i eat. thats where i mess it all up. but anyways degrassi is on and i gotta go watch it cuz it wasnt on last week. xoxoxChellaxoxox