everything and everyday the same same shit is happing. everything is just falling apart everything seems to be miles away .no one to help me no one to stay here with me, just alone in this world my friend tell me to let go just let the pain take me but i cant i cant let the pain win i need to go thru this everything seems so out of reach every time i breath it hurts every time my heart pumps it hurt it fells like someone has there hand on it crushing it just for fun, i cant die and i wont let go i cant i want to live i want to go on with it. why me, why. so much stuff has happen to me and this is does not help me want to live i just need to hold on for a little longer a little longer.