Well it seems to almost over well the school part, my first semester of college it’s a lot harder than that stupid real estate classes I took even if those classes where 8 to 5. I found out what my tattoo is going to be now its going to be a elephant skull with the letters CK on fore head of the skull, the only thing holding me back from getting it.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,. too much to explain. its been too long I can tell you how long its been too but I wont because never mind its not worth it bringing her up again. Well back to the elephant skull well to me the elephant means a big problem something that I couldn’t get over and well it seems like I am almost over it.,. so many thoughts are coming to mind right now all my old memories that I have of the past it seems like I cant get over them everything makes me want to forget so many things that are very lost right now a person that I miss so much and I don’t understand why lnr I do miss that girl so much and I don’t know why I catch myself thinking about her almost every day me and her were not that close but I just cant seem why I miss her so much she is so beautiful and I know she is out of my league.,. Sometimes I hate my best friend. It seems he never knows what I am going thru I tell him my problems and he just says just find someone else . man for him its so easy to find someone else he has all of our friends helping him I help him and its so stupid he thinks that he cant find a girl., his girl friend broke up with him and he was so lost and he didn’t know what to do and I helped him find a person and so did a lot of other people it took him not even a fucking week to find someone it didn’t work out because he got back with his girl but this happen like 3 times and all of those times he found someone because of me well two of them because of me and no one can even fucking help me find one person I guess I tried to hook him up with the girl I like because me and him are alike not looks wish but almost same kind of thought and I wish I could be like him I guess some times I wish I could switch places with him I wish I could be him for a little bit so much crap nothing I am typing is making sense I wish I could be with her she is so … I cant find the words to explain her .,. To start over is easy, To end it, Is the hard part. "I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be." Douglas Adams