I am going some where. where the girl I used to love, loves going o man this sucks well I hope I have a good day so far everything is falling apart memories are killing me, that’s all I know right now, wishing that it was more easy for me too forget things like her. I wrote this a looong time ago I found it in my car. its from when I first started to pick her up.. From bad to good in a matter of days. I can’t believe its happening again; I thought I lost her forever. ……… that’s the end of it but now I look back at it and it means nothing it doesn’t even belong here with me. Days are so long with out someone, people think I am doing good I don’t know why I do this to my self man I hate this.,. I like this other person now she is so beautiful and funny but I know that she is out of my league. And her friend will probably tell her bad things about me since me and her friend don’t really have a good relationship, I know I mess up really bad with that friend and I cant believe I really miss her I think about her almost everyday too every time I drive by her street or I see her stupid blazer, every time I listen to my favorite music like incubus, Thursday. I think about her I don’t know why this suck why cant I just lose memories that I want to forget :[ time is falling apart thing are killing me on the inside. Memories are telling me I cant make it, people lying to me, people dying around me its seems so pointless to go on. I hate this so much. Wish I never meet you or your friends. I wish I can lose you, like the way you threw me away I have change because of you and I hate you because of that I cant hide this lie no more my pride will be confined to die like this. a bunch of crap i have almost a whole binder full of shit i put together like poems storys i might but them on here but yeah. A friend told me, that I don’t like saying goodbye because it makes it feel like I never am going to see them again so I tell them, see you later imissyouandthenagainidont.