I feel like I don’t exist no more, everything seems to be passing me by while I stand here alone. Like a shadow on a cloudy day there is no use for me People look at me like a joke not caring at all for all I have done for them not even a thanks or a fucking call to my phone. My life is in the sky all in debris. Not a soul can tell that I am here waiting for someone. No one can tell how I feel, Even If I tell them they will never understand. I try hard every day to find some one but it seems like All this work is for nothing; my memories haunt me of getting hurt again Not wanting any more pain from stupid mistakes. So many thoughts come to my mind and when I put them down they don’t make sense I fall asleep touching my night stand because everything seems to be so far away when I close my eyes I am really falling apart right now, they only thing I got right now is my car and pretty soon my car is going to go too I need to change this before its too late, almost everyone I see is happy or with someone It makes me feel so alone to be like this Find something to live for………… And protect it. iloveyouandthenagainidont