So how is everyone doing? You know...I really hate writing redundant entries about how "life sucks" and shit...but man...I'm feeling kinda doomed. My car is STILL a piece of shit...I'm tired of my job (and working altogether)...I really need to be in college working toward a better job...and I haven't heard from "him" since 4/20. Goddamn...why is it that I seem to set myself up for this shit? It's not like I ask for it or anything...but to tell the truth nothing surprises me anymore. And as far as "he" is concerned ("he" doesn't deserve a name^_^)...yeah...I'm disappointed. But, once again, not surprised in the least. I'm not sure why "he" hasn't called...maybe because "he" decided to act on what I've been thinking. Which is that it IS a pointless attempt at anything. No...I'm not hurt, so to speak, just growing tiresome and numb from it all. I truly am pathetic, though. For some reason I feel that it is necessary to 'have' someone...to make myself feel more secure. Yeah...definately pathetic. Why do I feel the need to have a guy to boost my confidence? That is SO foolish. Well, whatever. I need to get MY life straightend out before I fuck with anyone else's. Until then...wish me luck on that! ^_^ Well...that's it. Take care everyone....peace.