You make my train go choo--choo!!! "Above all else, GUARD your heart, for it affects everything you do."--Proverbs 4:23 They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.--Andy Warhol The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed. Carl Jung Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired. Robert Frost Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds.- William Shakespeare Don't use words too big for the subject. Don't say 'infinitely' when you mean 'very'; otherwise you'll have no word left when you want to talk about something really infinite. C. S. Lewis This is pretty much what journals are all about, at least to me. I knew as I wrote them that even though they provided an excellent place for brain (and heart, and psyche) dump, they were mainly a map of me. Colleen Wainwright A classic is classic not because it conforms to certain structural rules, or fits certain definitions (of which its author had quite probably never heard). It is classic because of a certain eternal and irrepressible freshness. Edith Wharton Please write again soon. Though my own life is filled with activity, letters encourage momentary escape into others lives and I come back to my own with greater contentment. Elizabeth Forsythe Hailey Keep writing. Keep doing it and doing it. Even in the moments when it's so hurtful to think about writing. Heather Armstrong The worst is over; you can have the best of me. Why do we have to wait for special moments to say nice things or tell people we care about them? Randy K. Milholland The difference between the right word and the almost right word is the difference between lightning and a lightning bug. Mark Twain Accept the pain, cherish the joys, resolve the regrets; then can come the best of benedictions - 'If I had my life to live over, I'd do it all the same.' Joan McIntosh He who is caught in a lie is not believed when he tells the truth. You can't base your life on the past or the present. You have to tell me about your future. Chuck Palahniuk Love cures people -- both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it. W.H. Murray Robert Heinlein: Love is a condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own. William Shakespeare: My bounty is as boundless as the sea, My love as deep; the more I give to thee, The more I have, for both are infinite. "Romeo and Juliet" Some douchebag from another school- Austin What a man – salt n pepper “I think that voice held him most with its fluctuating, feverish warmth because it couldn’t be over-dreamed—that voice was a deathless song.”- F. Scott Fitzgerald The Great Gatsby pg 101 Seduction is enticing someone into doing what they secretly want to do already, I won't make you do what you dont want to do. Part of every misery is, so to speak, the misery's shadow or reflection: the fact that you don't merely suffer but have to keep on thinking about the fact that you suffer. I not only live each endless day in grief, but live each day thinking about living each day in grief. C. S. Lewis

Sometimes we do the things we fear the most in order to over come that fear. lol yes yes u get shotgun, i no, i no. but when im sitting in the back i can still talk to myself and be like: "i always sit in front, but nnnooooo stacey HAD to call shotgun, which she said a bagillion times, she just wants that whole, arm rest awkward thing again. ugh, what am i to do with stacey? hm, i no what seth can do with stacey, but hes to OBSESSED with heather even though they will never get back together because heather is too jealous about his little whores, and he is meant to be single, which ive told him, but no, he still lives and BREATHES HEATHER! i mean COMMON its been a year get the freak over her!!! am i making u laugh? well im glad you find this funny but this is a very serious matter i mean who could like a girl that could be so evil, so MUCH!??!??!??!? yeah yeah, she wouldnt give him as much as makayla or jamie or heck, even you. just kidding, but really. seth is meant to be single and hes admitted it! but they still obsess over eachother and heather still refuses to go out with him. he comes over to dustins, shes automatically out there flirting with him but she wont do anything else but lead him on even more just to bring him down. and hes not any better, i mean the whole i love u thing just when things are starting to work out.. hes worse that josh! what is WRONG WITH PEOPLE?!?!!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!! *big long sigh* *crosses arms while still sitting in the backseat*" wow, that was a long conversation to myself. lmao. [17:30] detectivezim: wellllll [17:30] detectivezim: i'm sorry to have to be the one to tell you this... [17:30] detectivezim: but [17:30] detectivezim: he is. [17:31] KissMeCrazy90: dammit. that explains the random times during the night i feel like the end of a safety pin is poking me [17:32] detectivezim: HAHAHAHAHA [17:32] detectivezim: wowwww [17:32] detectivezim: that's amazing [17:32] KissMeCrazy90: i only speak the truth... [17:33] detectivezim: oh i know Love comforteth like sunshine after rain- William Shakespeare 22:27] SECOx804: my thought jsut need to stay in my head for a lil while longer [22:27] KissMeCrazy90: no. [22:27] KissMeCrazy90: if i cant do that you cant do that [22:27] SECOx804: trust me [22:28] SECOx804: its better for your brain that way [22:28] SECOx804: gnight [22:28] KissMeCrazy90: damn you [22:28] SECOx804: (Away Message) sleeping if its important you know the number [22:29] SECOx804: :-D [22:29] SECOx804: :-X [22:30] KissMeCrazy90: you wait. next time i say something ur not getting it outta me. i dont care what you bribe me with.

To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, & it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, & doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss & it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind in confidence for the future. Letting go is learning, experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, & made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, & all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, & the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and set yourself free. pshh. i'd tap that bump it & possibly even bang it. it's like.. i want to tell you [ but i dont want you to know ] cheers. to another awkward moment There's a little truth to every just kidding, a little curiosity behind every just wondering, a little knowledge behind every I didn't know, and a little emotion behind every I don't care. If you aren't in over your head, how do you know how tall you are? T. S. Eliot The last temptation is the greatest treason: to do the right deed for the wrong reason. T. S. Eliot

"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your life drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them." "At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away." "I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves that knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying." "Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know. I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself." "I have an aunt who whenever she poured anything for you she would say "Say when". My aunt would say "Say when" and of course, we never did. We don't say when because there's something about the possibility, of more. More tequila, more love, more anything. More is better. There's something to be said about a glass half full. About knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual. And depends on what's being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times there's no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless. And all we want, is more." "At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need." Turn around, walk away. Look, you can't do this, you don't have the right anymore. I know you want to see if she's okay, but she's not okay! She's a human traffic accident and everyone's slowing down to look at the wreckage! She's doing the best she can with what she has left. Look I know you can't see this 'cause you're in it, but you can't help her now! You'll only make it worse. Walk away, leave her to mend. Go on! "Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But I love you, in a really, really big, pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me." Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer/ Do you know you're unlike any other?/ You'll always be my thunder, and I said/ Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors/ I don't wanna ever love another/ You'll always be my thunder *work till 3:30ish. <3 lam or text me. I’ll get back to you.* woahshortness: did you pounce on him and kiss him? please tell me you pounced on him and kissed him.

you're my escape from reality, in a sense. if you want to call this reality. it's more a twisted sense of the word. the small idiotic things of everyday life. actually, i think you're my escape TO reality. Stability. Normalcy (yeeah history terms). I know this probably makes no sense, but it's true. I need the escape. Because I don't think i belong here anymore. Maybe thats kind of ostentatious....but i still think it's true. I don't fit into this warped puzzle where everyone knows nothing about everything. I'm tired of having ideas shoved down my throat, sick of watching the best turned to the worst, and tired of having little things get me. Its all because on one little reason. I just can't quite decide on what exactly that reason is. Ok. I'm done.

Ok, Brittany says I need to update, so I guess I¡¦ll go ahead and do it. For those of you who are idiots, the "history repeats itself" thing on my sitdiary was meant to say me and seth got back together. We went to see spiderman 3 on june 5. Soooo...staceys happy. Once again. Its been going good, much different I guess you could say. He came over Thursday night while I was in the backyard playing soccer with Lucy. She popped the ball...oops. We wrestled around in the grass for like an hour and I lost horribly. Then I got hungry so we went inside and I made him a sandwich and got something for myself. We went and sat on the picnic table while he ate and then went back and wrestled around some more. He drooled in my mouth. That was pretty nasty. I got his CDs from him and he went home. :) It was a fun night. This weekend was pretty fun. I'm enjoying this whole drama free thing...we'll see how long that actually lasts. Friday: Seth picked me up from school, we went to his house and sat in the messed up recliner for like an hour while he tried to bribe Reggie to go play downstairs. Then I gave him a back rub and we watched tv. He took a shower and we left and went to cracker barrel. Saw Jessica there. We played with the little triangle game. He definitely beat me like 6 million times, but it was fun anyways. Then we went back to his house and watched Guess Who. He fell asleep and I waited till the movie was over to wake him up. Then it took me 20 minutes to drag him outta bed. Lazy bum :). Saturday: work. Church. Sat with beth, actually turned out to be a good night. Talked to seth before I went to bed. Sunday: work. again. Came home and ate. Went to the mall, target, and coldstone with heather. Then came home and talked to seth for awhile, then went to bed. Monday: 3 hours of being chewning's aide. Now THAT was interesting. Pretty much sat there and listened to my ipod till they were done with their test and then talked to Karen and Lauren about random crap. 5th I finished my spread. 4th I attempted to stay awake while he went over our review crap. Then dad came and got me and I drove to Kroger and Lowe's. Got laughed at by some lady in the car next to me as I was parking. Then went home, got bitched at for awhile. Talked to seth while cleaning my room/ going through some crap. Then went to bed. Today's been...yeah. Algebra test was ok I guess. Lunch was...entertaining. Yearbooks been fun. Gossiping and sitting around doing nothing because I'm done with everything till graduation comes around. Next is English. Hopefully get my summer reading crap. Then I have my driving test with Brittany. Wish me luck!

history repeats itself. yeah it does. :)

again arrrrrggghhhhhh!!!! ereurthjtenkdlmglsedkjgn ok. i want to scream at the top of my lungs. but i mean that in the best way possible. its a kind of, happy frustration? dammit. why must everything and its cousin be so damn complex?

she's his second chance. his chance to make up for what he didn't do before. another opportunity to be happy. another chance to get it right. she's not the same as what he had the first time. but thats what makes her unique. she gives him insight. she listens. she stays no matter what, and he knows that will never change. But most of all, though she'll never admit it to him, he knows she loves him. and that's what keeps him up at night.

ARGGGHHHH!!!!! i hate when people do the exact same things i do. dammit. but i couldn't hate them if i tried. ♥ goodnight.

So sunday was my one year anniversary of making my sitdiary. Its crazy what all this thing holds. I think my private entries are my most important. Although, they disclose things I really don't want to remember. I've been wanting to update about some things for awhile, and i usually rely on myspace, but i can get to the blog section on there cuz im using a proxy. It's probably better to be on here though, since no one uses it much anymore. I went to prom saturday. It was ok i guess. Much better than last year. I felt bad about ditching stephen, but i didnt really have a choice. it made it a little worse once i realized something. but i apologized and i guess its ok now. weird thing is, my texting bill is going to be off the wall this month. I talked to joey, the most unlikely, about some stuff after school today. I hate when people make me realize things im trying to repress. I like to pretend if i ignore something long enough, it'll go away. Yeah, no such luck. Ive realized it really sucks to finally know what you want, and to simultaneously know that there's one thing and one thing only standing in your way. And the things people have said lately confuse me. Their actions and words are completely contradictory. Then again, they always have been, so im not sure why im expecting them to change now. I think i got my job for the wrong reason. It was more to prove something than anything else. But i'm glad to have one now. It gives me an excuse to skip out on things. Dustin got kicked out. Good news? At the moment, the location of movie night is closer to my house, which makes it inherently easier to get to and from there without so much crap. Bad news? heather more than likely wont be there. Kind of ironic isnt it? Less than three month ago that probably would have made me the happiest person alive. Things have changed though. Shes someone i can talk to, most of the time. I'd like to be as close to her as i am to julie, but i dont know if thats really possible or not. I dont think either of us will ever trust each other fully. That pretty much sucks. But I'm not as quick to dish things i know anymore. I'm valuing her friendship more. People have asked me to tell them things, and i havnt. Like lauren just now asked me how exactly heather feels about brandon, but i said i wasnt gonna tell her. You know what really bothers me? Everyone has an attitude lately. And they've all gone bipolar. It's like you say or do the slightest thing wrong, or hell, if you breath within 600 feet of them, you're the worst person in the world. It's getting kind of annoying. Thats why im just not talking to people much anymore. I don't have the patience. I've got enough to worry about with mamaw and her tumor, pap being sick, herb having cancer....and everything just all fucking up at once. My more typical petty teenage issues are, with no names added: someone is criticizing every move i make, and its starting to get old. someone is confusing me to the point that i wanna scream. someone needs to decide what she/he wants. i might have minimal feelings for someone, but im never saying a word to anyone about who it is. i dont want anything more than friendship with this person, and someone finding out what make that impossible. im having problems letting go of memories i have. i keep getting these flashbacks when im trying to sleep that lead me to crying and keep me up all night. some of these memories arent bad ones, i just dont want to think about them because i miss it. and the others are ones that make me wanna scream when i think about. oh. and i think i havnt moved on as well as i originally thought i had. im a pathetic liar. i guess i'lll go to bed now. its nice to get things off my chest.

Actually, minus monday's after school events, this week has been pretty good. Tuesday i had my doctors appointment. New prescription, finally. Yesterday krystin brought me a smoothie and m&ms. Lesley gave me a kit-kat bar. Good times. I had an enlightening talk with krystin after school. her pep talks rock. today lauren brought me a smoothie and doritoes. i love how everyone keeps bringing me food. their gonna make me fat, but i appreciate the efforts. 1st period we watched a video about prostitutes and serial killers. gotta love psychology. 3rd period consisted of talking to some guy who knows billy and playing the frozen bubble game. that thing is so annoying, but addicting. then i wrote julie back and read a little. lunch was fun. harrison thought i was trying to steal his money. loser. krystin came up with the "F-U-C-K *insert anyone's name here* song. And the G-I-V-E G-I-V-E me......yeah. anyways. Yearbook was pretty cool. Played with pictures. Directed study kevin came in to work with brittany on something. 6 girls and kevin all stuffed in a corner was pretty entertaining. then we migrated over by the computers. i wasnt completely comfortable with where krystins head ended up. and what she was taking pictures of. lmao. we took our yearbook class pic today. ill upload that later. chem was actually ok. harrison and i had to move up a table cuz suzy & alex stole our seats. i didnt stay long out front today. now im online talking to everyone. tommorrow should be interesting. but whatever happens, me and julie are going tanning saturday and having some fun. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ive been thinking this week. like a lot. ive cleared some things up, both in my head and on paper. when the time comes i think i can actually talk this time. it all makes sense now. when you repeat it over and over 3 million times, you find the words to make it all crystal clear. im prepared this time. and ill say what i need to say, unlike last time. i know what needs to be done to salvage things....i think thats the word. and i feel i need to explain a few things. talking to lacie last night put a few things into perspective. anyways. im gonna go take a shower and shave. comments guys? i love all of you. xoxo, Stacey

ive been wanting to say this for a very long time now: i have never heard music as bad as that in my entire life. anyways. a full day of working on my paper, and only 7 of my 18 criticisms are summarized. i suppose thats better than nothing. although, i found a short cut. i found several 20 pages criticisms, which means i only have to do 14. so 7 more to go. guess what ill be doing 2moro? still waiting for something to be delivered to me. i thought it was of ample importance. now im assuming i was wrong.... so now i crack up everytime i hear kevin say something about texas roadhouse. and i cant get through my history homework without ending up rolling on my floor laughing so hard. this cannot be healthy. thanks britt. so now im off to do absolutly nothing. phone calls? xoxo, Stacey

This weekend was a lot better than i thought it was gonna be. Dad wouldnt let me go to NY with julie for undecipherable reasons, but i still enjoyed myself. Friday i ended up taking pictures for the Veterans Day Assembly with Heather. That proved to be interesting. I tripped over thin air multiple times cuz im just graceful like that. Called dad during yearbook and asked to go home with heather then go to the game. He was surprised but let me go. So i went home with her and we rode to pizza hut and food lion in the camper, that was pretty funny. Then went back to the house and got diana ashley and claire, then went to the school. I got heather in trouble cuz i was too hungry. but we apologized and got past that.... went into the game and sold a bunch of stickers and spent some time down on the sidelines taking pictures and torturing clay with the flash. Always fun. Then went back to the camper and we went back to the house and i ended up staying over night there. We talked about some stuff and got it all worked out. Tis good. We werent expecting seth & dustin home till the next morning, but they got in that night and came in and talked to us for a little bit, then dustin went to sleep in the bus and seth sat in the back of the camper and talked with us. Then he went out to smoke and i stole my bed back, he came in a slept on the couch in the front. Heathe randomly started talking in her sleep and goes "SEETTHHHH!!!" although she still denies doing it. lol. I woke up to wayne yelling at dustin at 6:30 and then heather got out of bed and i followed shortly after. We took everything out of the room addition and put it on the front lawn for a yard sale. Seth eventually woke up and him and dustin took a load of crap to the dump. Heather and I got hungry so we made breakfast, then they came back and ate. We sold some stuff, waited around for my dad to come get me. He finally showed and we took that dresser home. Once i got home i changed and got my ipod and weeded out the flower bed. That was fun. Lots of worms and slugs. Raked up the yard a little too, not that you could tell. Then i rearranged my room to put the dresser in, then cleaned everything up. Michelles parents came over for dinner and i got bitched at by dad for random things. Always fun. Yesterday i pretty much just did homework all day, then got online and talked to people. Today was essentially boring. Picked mike up from work, took him home, then came home. Did some homework. Now im online. Random thoughts: im glad things are back to normal. apparently a few days and some weird circumstances can cure any kind of awkward situation. i have a bad addiction to corndogs lately. leave it to seth to turn that into something nasty.... 20:33] kissmecrazy90: i think i need a corn dog... [20:33] SECOx804: dick [20:33] SECOx804: cough cough [20:33] kissmecrazy90: oh puhlease. [20:33] kissmecrazy90: im good [20:33] kissmecrazy90: watch, in like 2 weeks im gonna scream if someone brings one within 500 feet of me. [20:33] kissmecrazy90: (corn dog that is) [20:34] SECOx804: right [20:34] kissmecrazy90: why would i scream if it was something other than a corndog? [20:35] SECOx804: right you couldnt scream with somethin in you mouth [20:35] kissmecrazy90: actually, dont answer that. [20:35] SECOx804: hahahahahahahahahha [20:35] kissmecrazy90: too late. i think ive pissed some people off because me and heather are okay now. guess what? fuck off and get over it already. speaking of heather, she just completely ruined peanut butter for me. ew. "I bet you'd be a hell of a lot warmer if we were having a threesome in a hammock." haha. good times at the assembly. only we could come up with a solution as creative as that. xoxo, Stacey

Courtesy of Molly's Profile. "You call me strong, you call me weak, but all your secrets I will keep..."

I havn't asked the same question to three different people. Make that four. I would neverrrr...... And i love how, "not that i care but...." precedes almost every question i ask julie, even though we both know, i care. so i was wrong about the whole, things not changing crap. cuz believe me, they have. not necessarily for the best either. i need AIM. i keep typing things in the wrong box when using meebo. nice save stacey. yeah i know, if i do say so myself. ok, so not really. but i can pretend. i predict: this week will be slow something that im gonna hate is gonna happen my weekend will suck and donnie will discover whats bothering me (thats what i get for having a big brother who pays way too much attention to the things i say) and karen just made my night. [22:37] DarkMagiGirl9: at this rate, I wonder when some people will grow up, and how they'll make a living [22:37] DarkMagiGirl9: haha, I can't wait until our 20 years high school reunion [22:38] kissmecrazy90: i know right? [22:38] kissmecrazy90: they'll all be fat and ugly. [22:38] DarkMagiGirl9: or plastic anyways. hopefully 2moro will be better than today. i have SODA, and those kids always seem to cheer me up. meanwhile, ill live. im too used to this. and i suppose i kinda brought it on myself.

colt 45 and two zigzags, baby thats all we need we can go to the park, after dark, smoke that tumble weed.... LOOOVEEEEE SHAAACCCCKKKK!!!!! haha. now thats what you call a MIX cd. good times. and now thanks to seth i have that song stuck in my head yet again. on the bright side, im beginning to like lips of an angel again. today was interesting. i love how my phone rings in psych (i later discovered it was LJ) and donahue pretty much ignored it. i feel so loved. in keyboarding i was so distracted by some things that i think i screwed up my test. lunch was well, lunch. shannons a very bad child. yearbook, i had to redo the entire damn ladder. but its ok. i like the conversations we have in the hall. with krystin heads pasted to the floor. after school me julie and josh were sitting outside watching movies on his laptop. then seth came and got us, we got half way to my house when i realized i didnt have my house key with me. so we went back to julies, seth got halfway home, i called and said we had money...he came back and got us. we went to his house. watched without a paddle. that was....interesting? then we ate lasagna. went back upstairs. got in a big fight with hacky sacks. im still not sure who wont that one. i got sick of sitting on the floor, attempted to steal seths seat and lost. Ended up sitting on the little couch corner thing keeping his feet warm and getting my butt tickled with toes. cuz u no, thats not strange at all. borrowed a calculator for my SATs saturday. watched part of white chicks, took josh to eckerd so his mom could pick him up. went home. got online. talked to chaz and michael and stuff. beginning to hate a different song instead. this is long. LJ also called today. That was weird. And really random. Ill explain that tommorrow though, although i dont like very much getting blamed for something i didnt do. Now im gonna go to bed. But not sleep. My head is spinning like whoa. its insane. long story. not really, im just too lazy to type. haha. goodnight :) xoxo, Stacey

I've never had such a rush as last night. (i know that sounds bad.) anywho. lots of fun. and i dont think its ever been like that before. I seriously wish i could give deatils on here, but i cant. I can however say that the pizza was good, however it was cold in the middle of julie street and i had windex sprayed on my stomach. and my ear is kinda gross, i wish i knew wtf was wrong with it. anywho. sweet. 2moro josh and seth are coming over. maybe lizzy too. kitchen floors. should be interesting lol. anywho. i say anywho a lot. xoxo, stacey

So im not sure what to say about yesterday. After we took showers, julie and i went to my house to get some money, then went back to dustins. We all hung out in the bus for a little while, then ate. then we all decided to play twister, and apparently im not too flexible. claire knocked me over lol. Then we went back in the bus and dustin was reading black jokes for like 2 hours and it was starting to get really old. Julie and i were on the floor talking to josh online and to each other. She was going to do something and then blame it on me to get me to do it. Weirdo. Then we went back on the bunk beds and were talking so that aaron could go to sleep. Then dustin went to bed and so did erik and ashley, so me julie and seth were at the front of the bus talking to each other on aim and stuff. interesting conversations. and im an idiot. but what else is new? Then julie and i went to bed after laughing at random stuff forever. We went to dianas this morning. Finished moving everything out of her house. Seth was attacking people with lysol and a plunger. He and dustin got in a fight with little kids toys. Thet were throwing little shopping carts and tricycles at each other. Now THAT was funny. Heather and i were butt wrestling again. And sword fighting with bed posts. Then we went back to dustins and put up the dog pen. Seth took me and julie home. We took showers and ate. A lot of crap has been going on now. Poor julie. and dustin too. Agh. Man in the middle sucks lol. And as for me, well, im not really sure what im doing. But i have decided what im not gonna do. Cuz after what i almost did last night...well, yeah. I just cant let that happen again. Cuz I hate when it does. xoxo, Buttercup

Last night was cool. Watched movies at dustins, cleaned out the bus a bit. The top bunk is really warm. It rained like heck last night. Seth and I had a talk with dustin about some stuff, and i kinda understand where hes coming from. I got to see a different side of him. Didnt get up as early as usual this morning. Helped heather clean up the living room and set up the china hutch. Talked to mamaw on the phone for a little bit. We all piled on the mattress in the middle of the living room floor. I gotta get batteries for my camera, i keep missing all these good moments. Apparently there was an interesting on everyones way back from the dump. hehe. Seth attacked me with a flyswatter. We came back to julies to take a shower. Now im ready with my tights and all. I love these tights lol. I still gotta go get a hat though. Which means i need to go to my house and get some money. Woot. I've been listening to Michael Tolcher over and over again. I love Sooner or Later. It rocks. I'm kinda cold, i guess thats what i get for wearing a skirt. Lizzy, the party starts at 5. So come around then or earlier if u want. I'm gonna go straighten my hair. You guys can call my cell if you want, if it doesnt die before i find the charger. xoxo, Stacey