Wowwwww. I actually slept to 11 today. I'm proud. Well, if u count getting up at 6:30 and calling random people to get dustin or heather's phone number. So i got heathers. And called her. And im like, tell your brther not to come get me, cuz im staying home today. And she's like, ok. So then i went back to sleep and didnt wake up till 11. I'm glad michelle let me stay home. I needed a day away from all the bullshit. And i didn't wanna deal with any today. So i took a mental health day, and it seriously was for my mental health. Now, i dont cry in front of dad much, but when he called last night, and i was explaining the phone call, i did. I know he wants to call her, wants to say something. But he wont, cuz he actually cares about me and doesn't want to make things worse. I was up late, talking to LJ. Not sure if that was good or not. Ugh. This entire situation is just, G-H-E-Y. So anyways....im washing clothes. And trying to make myself happy. I'm not succeeding very well. Only one thing can make me happy, and im never going to get that. NEVER. and that sucks. it really really does. So now its 11:30. Right about now i'd be eating lunch. Well, maybe. And then i'd have yearbook and bio. At least i dont have to deal with mr. holley or bao upsetting me even more. Everyone gives me conflicting advice. It frustrates me. I wish people could just agree on one thing to tell me. The truth would be nice. I strongly dislike being lied to. VERY STRONGLY. So i'm going to go now. And i suppose clean my room. I'm thinking i should of just gone to school, then at least my mind would be on something else. Then i'd be having fun. I never have fun anymore. So. yeah. bye i guess.