i went back on my word. what else can i do? i cant just say no. i'm not strong enough. i cant handle the shit that comes along with shutting people out. i'm... too nice? i don't know what it is. my friend is looking for pills. zantex & callotopins. of course she asked me too hook it up for her, and of course i said i could, but i feel bad about it for some reason. she said that they're not for her, but i dont believe that. and i dont want to feed ANYONE'S addiction.. but i said i would. well then! i guess it's just mandatory then huh! whatever thats pretty much my mood these days: whatever. just whatever to everything and everyone. if you dont put out, you can't get hurt, right? if you don't care, then you can't get shot down, right? right then. it's 9:15pm and i'm tired. i slept until 1:30 this afternoon, but i'm still tired. i am such a headcase. i never want to get out of bed again. i just want a laptop and a friend and it's all good. love