nothing could have prepared me for the aftermath of this long journey... journey? is it ok to call it a journey without being made fun of? my cats don't make fun of me. phooey. i feel all used up. like all of the love just got sucked out of me and i'm that nasty used condom you find in the bathroom after a party at heidi's place that you assume came from the univited guests anyhow.. yuck. i'm dreading the day caitlin comes to school with a bag of shit for me. clothes, pictures, etc.. i have her socks. she has our book of pictures and scraps. please don't hurt it. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- "so we took down all the pictures and then we took down all the walls packed up our expectations piled them in the hall yeah we bagged our future kicked it to the curb and then we stood there unencumbered and we stood there undeterred cause we were done clinging to the things we were afraid to lose and the only thing left was a breathtaking view you looked at me and I looked at you and we said, "How about now, "what you wanna do?" now that there's something in the way" ----------------------------------------------------------- monday is youth day down in ojai. christine is driving me, billy, and jordan to go run the LGBT table down there. i met the new facilitater tonight. he is SOOOOOO hott, but he is a gay 28 yr old police officer. no tanks! ----------------------------------------------------------- kazoointoit ----------------------------------------------------------- i wanna be happy again.