There is an upside to you being there and me being here. I do not have to live like that wandering child, and you do not have to be bored by my work ethic. My lack of provided entertainment. I am smoking fewer cigarettes and thinking more. I am in the process of creating a quiet space for myself; one room versus the entire world as I know it. Province Creme paint flecks, a symbol of my accomplishments. Dear god, what am I doing? Substituting a week's work for a week's life.