Life is sucking so bad. i cant keep my mind off of all the things i have failed at in life. i just want to dissapear. im so sick of everything. for a few days i thought that everything was going to be ok but then Lauren left and then i just got all depressed again. i guess shes the only thing that can keep my mind off of things. i dont want to live with my dad and change schools and all that other junk. but i dont want to go back to my moms and have everything be all stupid. i cant think of what to do and all these thoughts keep going through my mind. im kinda affraid that im going to hurt myself. i dont know what else to say. FUCK LIFE....