so this is what has been going on. first there is this girl named carolyn that goes to my school that i started talking to alot. well then she started liking me. so one night she asked me to hang out with her so i did and then when i was there we were watching larry the cable guy the health inspector she asked me what was wrong and when i turned to say nothing her mouth latched onto my face. so i was like ok whatever and slipped her the tongue. then she pulled away and said i love you then went back to kissing me. so i pushed her back and said WHAT!!?? and shes like i love you so i said dont ever say that again not now not tomorrow not ever. then she started all this crying bullshit and i just had to break it off. meanwhile i was hanging out with this girl tia from work that dated my uncle and dated one of my best friends. fucked up right? so then we started hanging out and then we ended up in my bed and lets just stop that there. and so while that all was happening Kailin came back from matyland and me and her were hanging out. after me and tia did all that i just kinda blew her off. i havent talked to her since the morning after that when i dropped her off. so the thing with Kailin i ended up getting really close to her within the two days we hung out. the truth is though ive always had alittle something for her. so we were hanging out one night and then i took her home and said see you in school tomorrow. hugged her. went home. went to school the next day and she wasnt there. so on the bus ride home i txted her to see if she was ok and she said her mom kicked her out and that she was moving back to maryland so i ended up confessing my feelings for her. she told me she has feelings for me to and that i should come see her before she left. so i put on all my best clothes and went to her house. we packed up her stuff and then she gave me a hug good bye and then when she pulled away she kissed me. ive never got that feeling that i got when she kissed me. so without saying anything i watched her get into the car and leave. i walked up to my car and left. got home. and ive been talking to her everynight on the phone until like 2 o clock. its been amazing. see the thing is she has so many problems and i really dont even care all the prbolems she has just makes me like her more. its so messed up. yeah so while all this was going down my car blew up. it was tapping and me and casey decided to smash it through a feild and the motor locked up so we kept trying to pop start it then it finaly un seized and we drove home. it was fucking sweet. but now i have no car. FUCK IT. ha.