today i did nothing to much the usual. casey was somwhere all day Lauren is in jersey so i was home alone all day today with nothing to do. i wish Lauren didnt go to jersey i miss her like crazy. ive been kind of a dick to her lately and i dont know why. she is the love of my life and i plan to make it up to her some way some how. idk. i wish she was here. i cant stand being away from her. even though we are on the phone twenty four seven its just not enough. she means the world to me and she has no idea. i just wish she could see how much she means to me. I FUCKING MISS YOU. come home.