well today nothing has happened yet so i hasnt been to exciting. last night was horrible. Lauren for some odd reason is not happy with me and i dont know why. i hate it. i love her so so so so very fucking much and she doesnt even reaize. i guess i have been being a real big dick to her. i dont know why i guess it is just the way i am. im trying to change i really am. i dont know we will see what happens. I LOVE YOU!!!! I REALLY REALLY DO!!! BELEIVE ME ALREADY.