Its all so different, but it all feels so comfortable. I dont know what I would do if anything changed. I just dont know. I know it wont last forever, but I am comfortable with it. Even when I'm not, I cant imagine what I would do without it. Everything changed over the past 2 months. I dont know anything anymore, I feel so distant from my friends and everything that used to be important to me, but now this is important to me. *On another note....* Your whole life you're taught that family is the most important thing, right? And bad times should bring your family closer... it kills..... the pain is so horrible. He is gone, I understand... but she doesnt need to have a fiance 5 months later living in his house and replacing him... not when she says he was the love of her life. And Victroia, what did i do? I didnt even know what was going on, he left it to her, what can I say? But its your mother with another man in your dads bed... and thats ok. I am sorry for your loss, but I am more sorry that you're taking it out on the people you have always known to count on, the people who have done nothing to you... your family. And I especially feel sorry that I spent 18 years looking up to you, wanting to be you... my favorite cousin. But I guess it doesnt matter anymore........ "I have nothing to say to you, Eva" Fuck You too.