Its so funny how fast things change! I mean, I am sitting here now, looking at the past year and just wondering why I did the things I did and why I didnt do the things I know now that I should have done. I should have been the one to make the move on him, not let her get to. But Im over that. I should have stayed on Abbey ct. I should have been there when stomper and cody needed me. But most of all, I should have videotaped the parties. Its been an amazing year, dont get me wrong. I learned so much about myself this year. With going to Florida, Georgia, Tennessee, and then doing it again at the end of the year too, and all of my time in Chicago. I know a lot more than I did a year ago. I worked this year for the first time in my life, and I enjoyed it but the reason I quit is because I couldnt stand the evil co-workers, it was too much to handle. I know who my friends really are, and arent. I had so much fun and learned so much responsibility. I moved in with cody in may, but he got locked up 2 weeks later. I did it on my own. I held it down while he was locked up. And when he got back, I was good to him. I held it down when Stomper got locked up too and I was good to him when he got back. The point is, I am so happy that I am finally really happy! I found someone who no one can ever compare to... it was so perfect at first but then he realized that I was not ready for what he wanted me to be. But I am... so now, I am trying so hard to get it together and prove to him that I am everything he could ever want me to be. And I will get him. And as long as I live, that will be all that I need. I am just trying to figure out one thing.... if i wanna have a lil fun before I get there ;) Either way... its gonna be ok. Jessica had the baby, but I just cant trll if it's cody's or not. His name is Izaiah CJ Hazle (CJ is for Cody & Jessica) its a cute name, and I hope it is Codys for Jessica's sake because if its not, she will be dead. Here's my baby! What else is new... My cousin Jessica came here on October 1st, but we left eachother when I came back from Georgia. We had a great month together, going back and forth from Holland to Chicago, we went through so much together in that month, grew a lot closer. And then finally he trip to Tennessee and Georgia was amazing. I had a lot of fun. She is coming back to Illinois now so I guess I will be makin the trip again a lot. We've spent a lot of time in Chicago together, its been amazing, heres me, Jess and Mel in October at George's house. Mini geez is gone now. We had him living here for 6 months. but it was too much for4 my parents to handle he kept getting in trouble with the police. I feel bad for him but he needs to learn. Oh well. So anyway, things are just crazy but im so excited to know what is going to happen next... maybe im just being weird. I wanna go to the club with Holly and Lee really bad now... we gotta go out and look all hot and just wow the crowd! So yea. Thats all I can really say...