Whelp, I'm having this problem, but I've had it for a long time. Here, this might explain it more: Have you ever had your life spin through your mind? Not when you're dying, but when to much seems to be going on. Has your head ever buzzed because of this? Your eyes ever become unfoscused because of this? Like when your mind reboots, for no apparent reason, and starts back up by going through all your memeories until this very day. Has it ever hurt so much, you couldn't stand? It does when it happens to me. Am I the only person in this world that has this problem? Am I alone? My friends would say "You're not alone. We'll help you through this." But can they really help me? What can they do for me but support me up, when it hits. There's no way to know when it's gonna hit, or how long it will last. Lucky for me, they never seem to last long. What does this mean? if I'm not the only like this. What's it suppose to mean? Is it suppose to help me remember my childhood? Cause it's not, it's ruining my live, and I really have no one I can talk to about this. Does this have to do with my past? Yeah, I don't remember my past, well the good anyway. If I remember anything at all it's the pain and suffering I or someone I know experienced. I guess you could call me a freak, but I'd say, "So are you." You could call me a weirdo and I'd say, "Aren't we all." You could call me abnormal and I'd say, "You are too." I've experienced so much pain in this lifetime I'm surprised I'm still living. Sometimes I wonder, "Am I really alive, or is this some horror land." But I can always pinch myself and realize this is life. This is some horror land, that we all can't escape. Some people are probably saying "Shut up" right about now, but I won't. Why? Cause I have the freedom to go on and on about what I like and choose. But since it is almost time to go to school, I'll be leaving you. But only in my dreams, will I actually leave this place, and visit a more horrible place. And only when I die will all the nightmares truly end. And with that I'll be leaving you. Something to think about: ~When you look into the eyes of a tiger, you can see your soul, and your greatest fear.~