i know i'll never be good enough for you, but do you really need to keep reminding me? i try so hard to forget you, but you just stay there as a constant reminder of what i can never be. i know i never meant anything, never have, never will. sometimes i think im drowning and I AM the one who pushed myself overboard and I AM the one holding my head under the water. everytime i try to come up for air I AM the one who pulls myself back down. there's no real way to end this without sounding disjointed, be ill just finish it off with a wish for dying do you think it hurts much to die? its hurting so much more to stay alive