okay this is time for a major life update instead of the usual ambigous ramblings. okay. first, im losing friends and i dont care. people come and do i guess. i have a big crush, but i dont know about that. i was really stoked on him, but you know when you get high and then you crash? okay thats what's happening. im so idk about him. umm schools going bad, its so easy to hate, im trying my best to be happy and keep a positive attitude, but its really going down hill. there are sooo many rude bitches at our school its unreal i cant stand it. everyone is fake i cant stand it. but fuck school. my mom has cancer, but its not thatt bad so they're gonna wait 3 months then remove it i guess. im not worried because if i were to worry, id just crack ya know. sometimes i just wanna freak out i feel stuck and i dont know how to get out. im spinning so fast and im wrapping myself so tight, i think i just might. until next year haha <3