decision made. all said and done, I still don't know if it's right. I guess I will find out soon enough. L.A.'s not so far, any how. but it will seem like lightyears when I'm there. anything beyond a couple of miles is far, no matter the distance. at least in mind. especially for my Ruby Tuesday. it's quite difficult explaining absence of self to a dog. even frequent weekend visits can't quite make up for the likely feeling of loss and abandonment. I'll think not of that. until need be. which won't be too much longer. I've yet to feel any excitement about college. what absolute nonsense.