well i gotta a lot of shit to do, but i think writing will help me focus. i'm learning to pace myself and not to overwhelm myself. i'm taking everything i need to do one at a time. i think its a lot better this way. i hate writing essays. especially ones that are about myself. i hate talking about myself. i don't want to sound too into myself. people tell me i'm too modest and that i should be proud and brag about my accomplishments, but i don't feel comfortable about doing that. yea i'm proud of myself, but i don't go boasting it to the world. its just not me. its better to see the peoples faces when they ask and you tell them and they are like WHAT?!?!? its great because since i'm so quiet about it people don't expect it. i guess thats one perk about being modest because if your always boasting people will expect it and it won't mean as much. well i guess i'll go back to writing my essay. wow this did help...