well i should be studying for a great big calculus test tomorrow, but....i'm not. oh well i hope to get a D on it because all my other grades are Fs, if i don't know what i'm doing tomorrow i don't, so its pretty much my fault. i just can't concentrate lately, like i'll be looking at my textbook and i'll see the words, but i can't read them. and i'll try to write stuff on my paper, but stop after writing my name. i just can't do it, its horrible, gahhh! what to do! it feels like i have ADD or something. i can't believe i'll be graduating in like 3 and a half months. oh man high school is almost over but i don't know where i'll be going yet. some of the admissions are supposed to be posted later tonight, so i'm waiting up to see what happens. it just sucks that the one i really want i have to wait till the end of the month. thats gonna be FOREVER!!! if i don't get into my #1 school i'll probably go to my #2 for a year and then transfer to a private school on the east coast. i'm sooooo bummed that i didn't apply to any privates. i will never know if i could have gotten in. NEVER! my mom was soooo annoying about it, oh well its over but i hope if i do transfer it will end up the way i want it. oh colleges...where will i be? i can't wait to find out. i've been waiting since the end of november and now its pretty much almost march. yea thats a long time.... i guess i'll try and study, hahaha we'll see...hopefully i find out tonight if i got into one of the schools. ahhh 3 more hours! i need caffiene!