why am i never truly happy anymore? i always feel so down. i just want to be happy again. i don't know what it is, but everything just makes me sad and its very easy for me to break down and cry these days. my parents are a big part of it. i'll be happy, but they come over and tear me down, and leave me to cry. too many nights i have cried myself to sleep, soaking my pillow with tears. i hate feeling so powerless that all i can do in defense is cry. i want to be stronger, i want to be happier. how to do that? i don't know, but hopefully i find out soon, because i hate how i feel right now.