long distance relationships suck soooooooo bad. i really don't know how to explain it. its just not enough for me. like being without him for such a long time. barely any contact with him. little conversations during the week and longer ones during the weekends are not enough for me. i think i give too much. like always sending little emails saying hi and i love you and hoping he has a great day. and then always checking my email to see if he had written back. and always being disappointed at not getting an email back. not even a tiny one. i know he's busy and i understand he's going through a lot, but a little one is just fine. anything is fine. i can be busy but i always have the time to do that for him. i know he loves me, but its just really getting to me. just not having the one i love near sucks. seeing other couples being together really gets to me. i miss him soooo much and i know he's coming back for a week in like 16 days, but its just so hard. i know it might sound selfish, but he just means so much to me. its just really hard and emotionally straining. and family on top of that is just hard. everything just seems so difficult for me lately like i can't get anything done and my pile of things to do just keeps growing. i just want to go away for awhile and not think of anything whatsoever. just be by myself...gahhh..