my computer is pretty much crap now, im trying to fix it, becuz if i dont, my father will get quite mad, and then just piss me off. today was an okay day, i didnt want to go today, but i cant miss any school becuz im already really behind. i hate it all. i think i want to stay home tomorrow though, i think it would be for the best...i would miss alot, but i really dont want to go. i havent done any of my work..im a failure. c'mon jen, try fucking harder. hes amazing, still. i wish i could be with him, i seriously do, but how can you date somebody that your best friend likes? its way complicated...and depressing. hopefully i will hang out with him, just me and him, without her knowing..maybe that would be good...maybe it wouldnt, going behind her back..i just dont know what to do anymore. today after school i had a horrible headache, so i took sleep aid, and passed out, its like 11:20 now, and im fully awake, i need to take more pills..thats my life. im really hungry, so i guess im gonna go get some food, this entry better fucking work cuz sit diary has been a pain in the ass latley. growl.