well i just got a good cry...but ive had better id like to say. i couldnt really let all of it out cause i had to force myself to stop cause my dad. i didnt want them to think i was weak...need seem strong and carefree. my dad is just yelling at me. i didnt do anything. was on my way to help my mom after her eye surgery..and i call my dad and told him my friends were dropping me off...then he started yelling at me saying why dont you just stay with your friends...i was like...but..im already on my way home. went home. got more fucking shit from him. then he apologized. i dont know. i wish i was with my boyfriend. even though...im really not that interesting in him anymore...but i cant break up with him. i just cant. i want too, but i dont want too. so its all confusing. hes away for this weekend...so i wont be seeing him til monday..which is fine. i wish i was somebody. i hate being alone...but what i hate more is being home.