i miss my boyfriend. i havent spent time with my friends all weekend i need to get away i got my eyes tested i need reading glasses i guess at least i wont have to wear them all the time did i say i miss my boyfriend? i feel like i treat him like crap. sometimes i dont even want to be with him but have no guts to want to break up. i dont want to have him sometimes...but i still cannot leave him. maybe its cause im stressed maybe its cause im a horrible gf. i dont really even feel that much attracted to him anymore..i use too..i use to always want to be with him badly...when he didnt even know me. but now that i got him...i dont really want him anymore. but yet im still in love with him. hes the only guy that actually makes me feel good about myself. hes still in love with some girl in cali though. pisses me off. i dont really say anything...i want him to know that it pisses me off. but i shouldnt be talking. i still want to be with my ex too. and he lives here in mo. eep. im getting back into the hang of this again...writing every day. i usually forget about this place. but i need to write..makes everything a little better dont you agree? i watched star wars III today. its a wonderful movie...i watch it all the time.