this enrty is for brandi so if ur not brandi u may be somewhat disturbed so pay no attenton ok u know im going to kill u now right? do you honestly know how hard it is to put up with a whiney depressed death metal rock star? huuuhhh??? well i dont think u do, otherwise u wouldntve told marilyn about marilyinni! now i have to live with looking at his sad eyes....i cant look him in the eyes anymore...*tears* hes so upset brando *cries more* he asked me when it happened...i had to tell him how many years ago it was...i had to see the disappointment in his face...poor marilyn...*sniffles* its horrible bran....he buried him today...well...all exept for the head...we never found it after the concert...why did u have to tell him? i mean sure his head falling off was somewhat of a hint but i told him it was just a new trick i taught him....*starts crying hysterically* oh its awful.....he cried all night...and now hes become all dark and gloomy (as if he wasnt already lol) poor poor marilyn....it was so sad this morning. marilyn went through old photos of mariylinni...u know when the deterioration process had just begun...he was holding him in his arms...marilyn looked so happy *trys to finish typing thorugh the tears* oh how will he ever overcome this horrible truth?... if only he didnt die..if only he didnt have to go like he did...so sudden so painfully. so...so...so...wait a minute....how DID mariylinni die?....humm....interesting *scratches head*...uhh...oh well... back to the drama *starts crying again* WHYYYYY!!!!?????? oh the horror..the horror! haha ok im done now...but since it was ur bright idea to tell him, now u get to tell him about his dog fluffy....i know what ur thinking...fluffy is still alive..well not anymore...cuz i just backed over him on the way in here...(hehe)anywho. . and about that certain sumone we have been talking about lately.. seriously i think u should just remember what she did to us..well to you mostly and remember that shes not worth it and yeah u can think about what may have happened if things couldve been different but that wont do any good either..we cant go back and change what happened but u know we got her away from those idiots and you did all you could but she just never realized all the shit she put us through..we risked out asses trying to save her brandi, you did the best you could and if she was too blind and stubborn to see it then shes not worth our time..theres nothing we could do about what happened but atleast shes not with the millers anymore and we did what she waned us to do and she went where she wanted to go and i guess maybe it was us that it ended up hurting but you cant keep wishing things were different..we cant bring her back and we cant change what she did to you but I belive that God sees what you did for her. you may not believe that he even exists but i do and i think you will be rewarded someday for all you did to try to help her and even though you dont see it now it did do some good. we all know what you did and even if she never knew how haard it was to help her we did and i gotta tell you honestly i admire you for everything you did for her, its just amazeing what you would do to help out a friend and its really awesome and even if she never realized what im saying to you right now, we did..me..trista...and even morgan. and you knw honestly i cant say i knew what a real friendship was at the time because of all we were going through. brandi you just have to let her go and after all you went through in God's eyes it wont go unrewarded and i just want you to know that she doesnt deserve a friend like you...and just dont give up hope bran...shell see..one day hopefully..and if not then atleast you know we did..