ugh. i am the worst person ever. i cannot believe what a bitch i manage to be to everyone who actually cares about me. so, i am so very very very very very sorry. to everyone. for last year and as far as this year. i'm sorry for being a bad friend to everyone and being a bitch and trying to blame everything bad that happens on someone else. i honestly don't know why people still talk to me. grrrrrrrrr. the worst thing is that i don't even try. it's like somehow i naturally am just mean to people. and i hate who i was and i hate who i am. because i don't know if i've changed or not. but i hope i will. so i'm sorry to katie, laura, rachael, tae, pat, anthony, amanda, iris, lindsay and the millions of other people i have hurt. no one has to forgive me, but will hopefully understand that i'm trying really hard to change.