i don't feel good. both inside and out. i need a break. i feel like something in my life has sucked me completely dry of the person i am. i just walk through life faded. and life is just these random moments that don't connect with each other. and emotionally wise is a roller coaster. but i guess that's normal for girls. they are crazy like that. i always tried to tell myself that i wasn't like other girls. not in a cocky way as if i'm better than other girls, but i always thought that the stupid things they don't get over or the things they get mad at, i thought it was never me. i was wrong. it has finally come back to bite me in the ass. i'm just like every other girl. i'm insecure and i have to wear make-up to feel semi ok looking. and i always look for reassurance with myself in others. and i get mad at boys for not calling. and i cry over the stupidest things. and i'm finalllllllllllllly sucked completely dry.