well....its been about 3 weeks since what i had at the time thought to be the best news of my life. that maybe this one time..this ONE time... after how long i've waited that maybe this was the reason for it. had it worked out with him... the wait was WELL worth it. but not even a word has been spoken to each other...and i cant help but realize that that isn't going to change.and yea i guess it is pretty much my fault but fuck... if he felt for me what i do for him.... then he'd do it. but i know he doesnt, im not stupid...no one could understand how i feel...how pathetic i see that i am... i know nothing about him except for the obvious and i like him as if i know everything about him... but u know call me desperate or whatever.... ill continue feeling this way even if i do it alone... 'i'd wait for him forever'...maybe one day.........