yea the other day i wrote this really long entry explaining everything to like the last detail and whatta ya know...it doesnt save and i lose it so...this is very summed up cuz i am not about to type it all up again... i broke up with carlos...i had been tryin really hard to like him and stuff...tryin to get more into this whole bf/gf thing but yea...i just...dont like him ha...poor kid. plus he pissed me off for several reasons and yea... i guess the only reason i went out with him in the first place is tryin to get over drummer boy...but ne ways thats over. we went to the bled/silverstein/madison/senses fail show...kicked ass. we talked to like all of them. it was just way awesome. and like we went like 4 hours early to make sure we were in the front, which we were, and literally like 2 minutes after we get there, drummer boy happens to get there. so for like 4 hours hes like right there...it was just so awkward. first time id seen him since all that drama with him happened. i thought i had convinced myself i didnt like him...but seein him just brought everything back...and so i couldnt even look at him that whole time we were standing there. i was just so nervous. but i guess he was...yet he wouldnt talk to me. well we said hey and stuff and like he made like 2 comments to me but u know...for the 4 hours we were there... we basically didnt talk.i was waiting for him to talk to me and at the end of the nite when we i got home... we were texting eachother and right away he says something about me acting like i was too good for him. and i tried to explain that wasnt it but he was like that he was tryin to talk to me the whole time and i was ignoring him...i said sorry, i wasnt trying to....he says whatever youre an a-hole...and i spent i dunno how long tryin to get him to respond to me...i mean i thought he was jokin...but obviously not. he hasnt talked to me at all....but despite all the reasons i have to totally dislike him...i dont. and this bugs the hell outta me that he wont talk to me.... why the fuck do i still like him...