am i falling for scoot? i called him baby only twice and it was because i wanted something and i knew how to get it. but now i call him baby all the time. i used to use him for his body, his rugged man strength. now.. i do it with him because i need to. because i don't want anyone else. i didn't tell him anything. now i tell him everything. i'm so comfortable with him. it's beyond comfort really.. i feel .. safe. i used to try and tell myself i felt safe with kiefer, but really, deep down, i always knew he'd leave me. i always knew i loved him more than he loved me. with scooter, i really am safe. i'm definitely physically safe, and i'm emotionally safe too. it's a weird feeling, but a great feeling. great. stupendous. when i think back to the things kiefer said to me the night i tried to win him back, being with scott makes everything better. i gave kiefer my heart. but scott stole my heart. he definitely stole it.. and it definitely belongs to him now. it kind of hurts me to say that. kiefer is supposed to own my heart, but he didn't want it. so somebody else took it. and that somebody else, he's taking much better care of it than kiefer ever even tried to. kiefer did three romantic things that i can think of. 1. he surprised me with roses while i was sleeping for thanksgiving break. 2. he surprised me on my birthday in the theatre with flowers. 3. he ordered me a cheese burger with no pickles, i don't even do that for myself. but that's it. that's all he did. scott has not only done random cute things for me already, but he is constantly telling me how much he likes me and why, constantly complimenting my body and personality, and has the potential to do some really romantic and grand things for me. kiefer still hasn't tried to win me back beyond a phone call..