i broke up with scooter almost a month ago. i'm fairly certain that he wants nothing to do with me anymore. whatever.

i tried to tell him that i am not the woman of his dreams, but he just wouldn't see it that way.

well, he will now that we're not together.

i believe it was the 29th that i told kiefer that i still love him. he responded with "i'm sort of not straight edge anymore." he also said that he can't really say it back because he has a girlfriend and that wouldn't be fair. ya ok.

i am more than certain that he barely wants to be my friend anymore, let alone my boyfriend. so that fucking blows. yay.

i started school and i love it.

i got a job and as far as i can tell (since i havent officially started yet) that i'm going to love it despite the hair and make up restrictions.

so if i'm more than certain that kiefer barely wants to be my friend let alone my boyfriend, then why am i still hung up on him? it's been almost SIX goddamn months. i need to deal with the fact that it's over and that its never going to happen again. six months jordan, come on, it's been six months.

i need to start looking at other guys. i need to show the world how fucking amazing i am.

because i really am crazy bad ass. b.a.p. if you will.