i never asked for your opinion just ask a question can you undo what has already been done? what i have already done myself i promise i wont care just like you did im sorry it took me so long to come to my senses im sorry it took me so long to realise the hidden secrects to realise what i have been doing was wrong i no longer can seek refuge in my own world because now its just become a private hell inside my own mind is no longer safe retrace the steps to the lost memories go through your thoughts retrace them away from the sorrow away from the hurt i live where the sun no longer shines where the moon no longer brightens this darkened life i lead which would you prefer? this was all just wishful thinking my mind playing tricks on me all too good to believe this shouldnt be happening not to me not to anyone was all this your fault? i dont think so the only person i should be blaming is myself.... --------------------------------------- all thats left dont try to avoid it let the feelings flow let them flow right through you through you mind through your soul and let them stay in your heart hold on to them and dont let it go dont let it slip through your fingers its the source of happiness the source of everything just take my hand everything will be fine again words soothing the thoughts your presence comforting the sorrow it wont last forever nothing does it all slowly dissapears in to the sea of nothingness drowning in its own pain its gone but it lingers and those thoughts remind me to feel because sometimes im so empty but all i have to do is remember but as the sun goes down and shadows fade by the day i forget just that little bit more and it gets harder the dreams where you take me away away from everything seem impossible to come true and its not letting me breathe not letting me move it doesnt work doesnt function how its suppose to heavens going and hell is awaiting hope is gone and dispair is here the blackness in the back of my mind feeds off the memories untill i can longer see you face again and the days suddenly seem unbearable i go about day by day and realise that i am now left like how i was before you came alone lost and empty i dont want to start falling again but you have let go and im no longer flying just falling falling down down to how it once was down to the life i tried to forget but a life i am forced to live again love sarah