Just a little lost right now.

Heavy.

I keep trying to find my old self

and im increasingly aware shes no better.

I'm scared of my future.

Optimistic about my potential.

Lonely.

Do you know what New York

can do to a person?

To be surrounded by people

99% of your day but STILL

feel incredibly alone is an

.....

I cant do this.

To be in control and so ealy decimated from

your devices through alochol or drugs is an

...

to feel like you constantly are trying to uphold

a certain self standard only to be blocked by

your self. by your self combustions..

upheavele